In other news, I'm happy (and scared to death) to report that next month I will be changing from full-time to fill-in status at work. This means that I will likely only work 8-16 hours per week. The kids will be at home either with a family member (hopefully) or a sitter when I'm at work. NO MORE DAYCARE!!!! I have NEVER not worked full-time. I'm frightened to give up all the benefits that my job offers. I'm frightened that I won't be a great SAHM. I'm frightened that Kevin is going to feel overwhelmed with the burden of being the primary breadwinner. Financially, it is going to be beyond tight. Yet, the thought of being with my kids, who are growing up waaay too fast, and being able to go to every appointment or every field trip and have time to enjoy them is so incredibly exciting to me. The thought of being able to be there for M, to work with her more, to give her every opportunity she deserves is such a gift. E will be at 4K from 8-11:15 Mon-Thurs. That gives M and I a nice amount of time for daily therapy. I'm so looking forward to spending un-rushed time with both of my children. I saw this posted on another blog and it really describes how I feel (sorry, Honey, I know you hate poems).
My dishes went unwashed today,
I didn't make the bed,
I took his hand and followed
Where his eager footsteps led.
Oh yes, we went adventuring,
My little son and I...
Exploring all the great outdoors
Beneath the summer sky
We waded in a crystal stream,
We wandered through a wood...
My kitchen wasn't swept today
But life was gay and good.
We found a cool, sun-dappled glade
And now my small son knows
How Mother Bunny hides her nest,
Where jack-in-the-pulpit grows.
We watched a robin feed her young,
We climbed a sunlit hill...
Saw cloud-sheep scamper through the sky,
We plucked a daffodil.
That my house was neglected,
That I didn't brush the stairs,
In twenty years, no one on earth
Will know, or even care.
But that I've helped my little boy
To noble manhood grow,
In twenty years, the whole wide world
May look and see and know.