The Waiting........

I kind of forgot about the pain involved with this part of it. The endless waiting on other people to come through for you. Having to depend on someone who really could care less about your cause to do things that are vital to it's progress is exhausting. I am a self-proclaimed control freak and the thing about adoption is that you surrender all control to everything! A very wise adoptive mommy reminded me last week that this is OUR passion, it is not anyone else's. It is up to us and us alone to make it happen. The only control I have left is how I choose to react to our situation. That's a tough pill to swallow because today, I'm not real pleased with our situation.

The broker that is supposed to be working on our refinance has pretty much dropped off the face of the Earth and I suspect it is because she has found out that she cannot make good on the promises she made us. Our federal tax refund has not yet arrived so our formal application materials sit, all filled out, waiting to be mailed. Our appointment for our home study which was to occur in the next couple weeks has yet to be scheduled and no one seems real concerned about any of this.

To top it off, we've been dealing with some medical concerns with E and that is causing much anxiety and stress.

So, after a little pity party and some pouting, I have taken a few steps towards resolutions, I hope. We've contacted a new mortgage company who came highly recommended to help with exactly what we need. The broker is friendly, yet very much business (which I like) and while he is not as confident as the last one, I'm trying to remain positive that he will come up with a good deal for us. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that our tax refund will show up in our account any day now, of course, when it comes to the Feds, crossing your fingers is about all you can do. I'm sending off an email to our agency coordinator requesting an appointment as soon as possible. And, today, I decided to request our police clearances - one teeny, tiny, little piece of the dossier puzzle. Might as well start the hunting and gathering, right?

Tomorrow WILL be a better day!